So I noticed my first post was title "Lol", but then was really serious. So, I thought I would write about something joyous.
Ever since I took a class on C.S. Lewis I have been enamored by "joy". The concept of joy is that it makes us happy. But there is a joy that come from God. This "joy" is felt when I am in a way in tune with God. I feel close to him, and there is this happiness that comes over me. But once I take my focus off of what is bringing me so close to God, be it a song, or a Bible verse, or even a train of thought, and try and focus on that 'joy' oh the joy that it is, the joy quickly fades as quickly as it came. If you can't tell I love that joy, and very thankful for God each time I feel it, but also deeply saddened by its disappearing. There is another part to this that I worry I will fall into, and that is if I am doing something I think is for God, and I don't feel this awesome joyous feeling then either I or the thing I am doing to try and be in tune with God is not something He finds worthy. But this shouldn't be the case. God does not have a reward system that we are to understand. Anyone who claims to fully understand God, is someone I will probably laugh at.
I had a joyous moment today. Last night I was looking at a good friends blog, cause she has been back in the U.S. for a few months now, and she is a really good friend. But the way she talked about being overseas, and the work she did, with and for people, really made me think that it is very much a worthwhile experience to try and have. Se was very clear and it was easy to see how her heart is very much still in Ireland, and God has used her experience to make her a new person, and obviously a more God-like person. I hate to say I am jealous of her, but thats what it is. So I looked up some possibilities on the internet, only to have an e-mail sent to me by our school looking for people to go on mission trips over the summer. I mean I haven't fully decided that I'm gonna go, but they are on campus in a few weeks, and I am going to have a good conversation with them. And this is all the more reason for me to get a passport.
When all of a sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.
(How he loves us, DC*B)
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