Week one done

So this stinks. I have this absolutely amazing job. But I hate it. I have been through so many goodbyes the last few months that I'm just sick of them. Within one week this group of high school kids, I got closer to them then I would have ever imagined. Just to see them go. We laughed, we worked, struggled, talked about life, and just about everything else. Mission trips really bring peope closer together in that relationship I abosolustely love. But I didn't think about the ending. I was worried about crying when the team left this morning, and talked with my team about it, and the girls said it will show them I care. I said that the guys will probably just see it as, this weird guy is crying. So I held back and did a few "eye itch" wipes to cover. But it was amazing to see God use this group in the community here in Atlanta.
So here is an update of whats going on. In the morning I am scrapping door frames and repainting them, we got 7 done last week. Then in the afternoon I am doing a kids club. The kids club is really different than the Sparks program I've done before. My group and I walk to the kids houses and let them know we are having it, then walk with them to the park. Then we spend some time in recreation, then play a specific game, have a lesson, then craft, then have a snack, then just play till it's time to go. Then we walk the kids back home. But this gives us time to talk with the kids, and build relationships with them that are positive, and even though the teens leave at the end of the week, it is showing these kids who desperately need it that someone cares about them.
I am literally walking with a group of white teenagers around inner city Atlanta going up to house and knocking hoping kids are home. I have embrassed the role, and am growing in it. I had to learn to trust God with everything, even my safety. I read in my devo about a story where the guy made me think, how it's up to God whether I wake up in the morning or not, so why am iI trying to conrol if I make it to bed at night. No this isn't my only guiding thought, but I just feel I can trust God a little more than I had.
Well I feel I've chatted enough. Things are going great though. My team and I are working things out. I feel that we will really grow close to each other, and I continue in my excitement about the aawesome things God has begun, and will continue to do with us. Feel free to text me, and I'll try and call when I get a change and chat. That's probably the best way to comunicate.