I've been a little busy. So here are some tidbits from my mind I wrote down during this last week (in no particular order).
Give it you best but leave some for tomorrow. This has to do with my job that seems 24 hours a day. I'm with amazing high school kids that are on a mission trip, and growing from it. But if I spend all 24 hours a day every day will I get burned out? I hope not. I'm hoping God gives me the strength to get through it, and the knowledge of when to take a break. There is a girls basketball team that comes in to practice at 5 am each day. I heard the coach telling them to give 110%. But does that mean at a game after the 4th quarter should they keep playing? Side joke to the side now, I am hoping I can do what I am doing as though I am working for the Lord. But day in and day out might be a struggle, but for now I am gonna stick to the plan. I was even really glad when at like midnight me and 2 guys got to have a pretty in depth conversation about some theological things. It was pretty awesome to see God at least on these boys' minds. And if I wasn't giving it my best then I would have missed this opportunity to share with them, and help them grow deeper in God. Which by the way, please if you do nothing else try and grow closer to God, it is amazing, and if you get the chance to help someone else too DO IT.
Best job ever. Not a great transition, but related though. My main focus at my job is leading the teams through their mission trip. This means they want a good experience, and I try and give it to them. But I also keep close to that the community that we are helping. The goal is not just have them come just to be on e mission trip and feel better, but to actually help in the community, so I get to put the 2 groups together in the best way possible. Then my team and I fit together to organize the team the best we can, and we strive to make all of these puzzle piece work together in a way that glorifies God. But to sum this up; I get to work with great youth, great youth leaders that I can learn from, I get to minister to a community and build awesome relationships, and I get to live with 3 amazing friends that have a desire for this summer to be the best it could ever be.
Safety at park. I know I am working in inner city Atlanta, so this should not be a surprise. But I had a group of high school boys show up when I was trying to lead my kids club. They didn't do much, but they did hit each other and a girl that was with them a few times, and I tried to step in, and talk with them. But it didn't go so well. As I was leaving they were throwing some stuff at me and one of the boys I was walking with. But even the boy wanted to go back and talk and try and be friends with these guys so he could be more like them. It kills me to see some of these kids act like this. One boy was gonna hit another and when I got him calm he started talking and I could see how smart he is, but it takes so little for them to get angry, and the way they express their anger is by hitting or punching or anything of the sort. I'm a long way from the Sparks program back in Huntington...
Incredible cry just let go. This is last, and comes from a talk I had with a lady from the Salvation Army I work with. I am not sure why but I poured a lot of personal stuff out to her. I mentioned how I have been saying goodbye a lot, and part of this job is getting to know amazing kids just in time to say bye. Then we talked about some other things, but she just told me it sounds like I just need a good cry. I kinda agree, but not sure how to go about it. I like being in control, and I'm hoping God allows me to break down and trust Him more, because if I stay like this I will just try and stay in control and not allow Him to lead. But any time I get a little teary eyed I get control of my emotions and just do the eye itch thing and move on. Not sure where this came from but it seems to be pretty deep, because I can't really remember the last time I really cried hard. So if you see my in a corner crying just let me be, so I can finish this good cry. Not sure which reason will set me off, but I hope its soon.
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